My ability to feel young and care free is dwindling with each minute and I just feel that in order for me to keep what shed of mental stability I have left I need to hang out with them on some kind of daily basis. I feel like I'm losing touch, and turning into something obsolete as far as friendship goes. Someone they don't need or want around and I don't want to become anything that closely resembles that description.
If that happens then I have nothing, and although I may act like like I want nothing it's simply not true. I want and need that safety net they so excellently provide for me and my stupid brain